As usual, went to work, thinking that today will not be a busy day. Yes, this is so in the morning. But at 11am or so, things being to just keep coming in. Phone calls was not as much as yesterday though. Cannot really remember what held me back. But when I had the time to go and check my emails, I had like 30 emails to clear??? First time in history. Broke my own record already...
After that, the emails and faxes just keep coming in. But the time I was freed of all the work, it was already 7pm!!! Luckily May was unable to go and shop for her dress today as well. Otherwise, she would have to wait for so long. Or maybe I will be the one to cancel the trip. =)
Called Dear to see if he wants to come and meet me then. He was too tired then. Asked me to go and meet him on Thursday morning. It is his off day that day. Can afford to go home later to rest. Another resaon of him asking me out that day is because he is going for an interview that morning. At 11am. A 3rd interview at Raffles Hotel. Seems like he confirm will get the job already. To go or not to go for it. We were just discussing about it just now. A big dilemma. It also seem confirmed that he will be the Acting Night Manager in Amara as of next month. The only obstacle is pay wise. Should he stay or just go for something which is already there for him. Somehow do not seem to trust Amara anymore. But the position they MAY offer him is something he wanted. To become a Food and Beverage supervisor, it is definitely a position lower than the Night Manager. And also, the department wise, of course to be in the Front Office Department is better. So Dear, my advise is, if you confirm Amara will give you the position, just stay and complete your probation. After that, you can proudly walk out of Amara, get a new job with better pay at the same position elsewhere. Agree?
Thought I do not want to check his email anymore. But just cannot stop myself. Went in, saw mails from that person again. Unintentionally, or intentionally, I went to read them. Both opened and unopened. It really depresses me alot. To the extend that I was stuffing myself with food just now. There goes all my effort to lose weight. Think from tomorrow onwards, I shall just eat as little as possible. I heard exercising and eating pills will both have side effect after you stop doing it.
Anyway, that aside, the mails that I read really set me thinking. What is he trying to do??? What is he treating me as??? I really want to know. Kill 2 birds with one stone??? I know I will be at the losing end. One, I am a Chinese. Secondly, I am a Singaporean. I know he will not stay in Singapore for life. I do not mind that. I really do not mind my dear. Who exactly is she??? Really very disturbed by what I read. Why??? Why can he confide in her and not me. I asked him about his trip. He did not want to say. But when SHE asked, I think he told her the whole story. (From what I read from her reply)
If he has been cheating on me, should I really let go? Or rather, will I be able to let go? Should I give him a chance to amend himself? I am lost... Really lost...
Dropped him a mail. Do not know if he will get my hint after reading it. All I can do now is to wait for his call later. I am sure he will check his mail later on.
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
1:19 PM